Day 4: Get ready for my long list of food and short list of exercise.
Food: 2 slices of toast, banana, large salad (lettuce, rocket, baby lamb, cucumber, tomato, celery with light salad cream) two sausages, yoghurt, apple, clementine, handful of cashew nuts, 2 squares of dark CHOCOLATE!!! (i gave in to my cravings) peperami, 3 sausage casserole, chopped tomatoes, leeks, onion, carrot, cabbage, green pepper and I have to shamefully admit that i hate some of my lovely creamy mashed potato off of my husbands plate, and even though it did taste brilliant i regretted it straight away.
Exercise: I caught up with my exercises from Day 3 that i didn't do. So did my 25 sit ups, 12 leg lifts, and 35 secs each leg for my half bridge extended leg, but that was all supposed to be done on day 3. I also did my 13 press ups, 1:45 of plank, 70 sit ups, 13 leg lifts and 40 secs each leg for day 4 so i'm all caught up with my exercises. However even though i was all changed and ready to go to the gym when my husband came back from work, he was too tired to go and even though i did spend ten minutes trying to persuade him, when he still didn't want to go i let it stop me going to, which i shouldn't have done considering how much i had already consumed that day.
However as it's starting to hit home that i've not had much progress for the last couple of days and my motivation and dedication are disappearing when it should be my chub that's vanishing before my (and everyone elses) eyes i'm feeling the seroiusness of how my actions are the only things that are going to make me reach my goal (to be 9stone by Christmas) or not, and that's scary.
I want to reach my goal i don't want to stay forever like this feeling unattractive and frumpy, so i've found a photo of what i do want to look like and hopefully that will help to keep me motivated.
It's pizza night tonight at my mates house, but i told her yesterday that i won't be joining in on the pizza and rather than delving in to my full diet and boot camp regime I just said that i was putting on too much weigth since leaving college, and after an embarrassing conversation where she told me that i wasn't, easy for her to say when she is size 6-8, she told me that her other friend is bringing soup cos she's getting her tooth out, so i said i'll join her in bringing soup, which will save me a lot of calories, I need to make sure that under no circumstances will i eat any pizza, i need to remember how embarrassing it will be after making such a fuss about not eating it in the first place and how many calories, fat and carbs are in just one slice.
My weigh in is fast approaching on sunday morning so need to keep on track now there is no time left to be cheating.