“
Well what should I start with there
is a lot that I can write about,more bad then good but you have always
been there at the back and even at the front of everything at times.
Just wanted to say that you have made my life what it is to be honest
because of you I am now a stronger, smarter and most importantly a
survivor. Since the first day you came into my life we have had a
non-stop battle your try and bring me down but I came back even
stronger and more determined, you try and isolate me but I have made
friends from all over the world.
At times
I have spent more time trying to bring you down from as high as you
have taken me but have always managed to climb down or even slide down
the stairs and even then you try and push me over the edge by going
down as low as you can go trying to make me feel belittled and fed up
but you will not win till I gasp my last breath of air. I also wanted
to say thank you yes you heard thank you for making me look after
myself from my mind to my toes along with my insides and outsides
because I see how some no diabetics don’t bother looking after
themselves but I do and mainly because of you, I want to say thank you
for the great friendships that I have made without you I would have
never made some life long friendships it does not matter that we don’t
live near each other or that we have never met before all that matters
is we are dealing with you.
Because of you I had to mature a lot quicker then most
people, learn to say no and stick at it plus learn to ask for help when
I need it, furthermore I learnt that just by listening to my body
instead of every person who opens their mouths I could learn key facts
about my body.I never thought I would say thank you to you and you’re
properly shocked but I have said it now so deal with it oh nearly
forgot wanted to say thank you as well for being the perfect excuse at
those awkward moments when I needed to get away you are brilliant at
those times as people who don’t have knowledge about you would not dare
to question. Still I have not forgotten the bad times having blood test
after blood test and the bloody daily injections are all your fault but
I have learnt to deal with them and made a schedule to help me keep you
under control, you thought I would give up after those dkas well you
thought wrong and the carbohydrate counting you thought I would
surrender as I hate maths and numbers well guess what wrong again had
friends and professionals to help me as well as equipment like scales
to help me figure it all out, the major something I can never forget is
the worry that you impacted into my mind and heart of what damage that
you will cause.
Last
but not least I will never forgive you or allow you to control me but
one thing I know is that we are in this life together until there is a
cure, don’t smirk there will be a cure sooner or later and when it
comes we will depart you will go to the ends of the world and I will
enjoy life without you or the other one is when I die, honestly I hope
you do go to hell because I pray that I will go to the heaven furthest
away from you…Then we will see who is smirking!
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